Wednesday, April 30, 2008


My Mom always said that food was my luck because I always get to eat everywhere. It's like Dad who's always able to find clothes at descent cost and style. I got a new job where I will get to eat stuff often.

Cuz the company is a large food distribution company.

Friday, April 25, 2008

2 dreams

It seems that I haven't had any creative dreams in a while. So let me celebrate by describing the two that I had before I got up this morning. I will also try to explain how my mind ended up combining things together and resulted in having a dream.

This one is the longer of the two. I was in a car on a road beside the beach and it was supposed to be a beach in Burnaby. I probably got this because there will be a WCCCLC event coming up next weekend at Fraser Foreshore Park and it's right by the Fraser River. I was imagining there was this really nice beach that wasn't the kind of beach you would find in Hawaii or California - you would never find that in Vancouver. But it was nice because it was family-oriented and there were a number of cabin-like shelters along the beach. The shelters kind of looked like they were made of giant popsicle sticks. Anyways, I was in the car with a few other people from the WCCCLC community and we were heading to a pro-life seminar that a number of youth organized. Of all people, my Dad was participating in the seminar as well!! There were elementary school age children to give speeches and my Dad also volunteered to give a speech. His topic was focused on the life of the unborn. He even got tensed up because I came late. This combination of my Dad talking about the unborn probably came about because of my Dad reciting the Prayer for Life at church on Sundays. Why the school and the children? I don't know.
Anyway I came late partly because of my ride by the beach but I was also late because I had issues with changing my clothes in that building where the seminar was to take place. It was kind of like an old motel and it was only like two floors high with white interiors and narrow halls. I was trying to change my clothes in privacy but there were people everywhere. Somehow I ended up changing my pants somewhere that I thought was safe enough for the time being but then some kids including girls saw me pull down my pants and my butt was showing or something. I think this image just came about because when I change at the SYL school, I get concerned that people may open the door to come in right at the moment when I pull down my pants.

This one didn't last very long cuz I woke up very soon after. Basically I dreamt that Ayron Howey was doing one of the combos that we at SYL have to do in Level 2: front toe slap, slap hands together above head, crouch down to slap floor with both hands, lunge forward and do an outside crescent kick, spin arms and go into the S-curve (that's what I call it) move (supposedly it's like running along a wall). Ayron was wearing a black t-shirt and a black what-looks-like an army cap and was doing the combo really quickly. I didn't even watch him do the whole thing and I was already starting to do it being amazed at how fast he was doing it. It didn't have the characteristic flow and smoothness of wushu but each move was clear and fast.
Interestingly, Ayron would actually be showing up about 31 hours later for the Saturday class. I haven't seen him for a while.

Ayron is more of a fighter than a demonstrator in contemporary wushu. Actually it was Logan Demmings (a wushu white boy, not being racist by the way) who was in my Level 2 class and I was watching him do the combo, but because I've never seen Ayron do wushu forms, my mind probably replaced Logan with him to do the combo.

But I woke up before I could get to the S-curve thing.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

blind eye

No more working at C21.

In fact, from the very beginning (January 2007) until today, somewhere in the back of my head was the thought that my annual salary was quite high for what I was doing. Or rather, I was doing surprisingly little for the salary that I got. I said it. My parents said it. Even though a few weeks ago my co-worker SY asked me to update the Procedure Manual, that thought at the back lingered. He said it was "very good". I even mentioned it to my parents a couple days ago. I explained that I felt somebody may be hired in the near future because I felt a change was coming in regards to human resources. There were a couple of times when I felt like saying (or asking) something about that but I ended up not doing it. Maybe Sheldon meant that the stuff I wrote in the Manual were so clear and helpful that training the new person would be a lot easier. I came across a number of other signs as well. I heard DW mention to SY about "the other person" and I felt something was up. I can pick up that vibration that I was very much in their minds. And all those talks they had in DW's office with the door closed, I'm sure some of it had to do with me. Yesterday, I was chatting with SY and I brought up the idea that maybe we could all get together for a game of golf this summer and he said maybe. Again, there was something about the air surrounding his head when he said that. And I felt like there was something coming from me that I could've said but I couldn't think of what. I think my parents suspected something all along. My Dad warned me from the beginning about this position paying so well that much may be expected of me.

But I had, since the beginning, turned a blind eye on my suspicions. What I should've done was to start looking for work when SY asked me to update the procedural manual. But I was too caught up on other things.

So anyway, I got the notice at about 3pm today.

But then on the other hand it doesn't make sense. Back in March 2007 (my third month), I was told to speed things up. So alright, that happened and I got through my probation periods without any word. And then later, in November (or was it actually December??) possibly due to the pre-Christmas hectic, things were getting kind of screwy again in regards to getting things done on time. So again I was told to catch up on speed. Alright, fair enough. But that was it - no word about there being anything else required in the job position that I did not do. Nothing about them hiring me in the hopes that I can more higher level stuff and help SY and AL out in their work. I even got a raise in January and a remark from CS saying "happy first anniversary"! Now, 16 months later after they hired me (they did, after all, interviewed me and decided to hire me), they said I wasn't fit for the job? Hmmmm.......... makes me wonder if this was their actual reason for not wanting me. Was it simply because I fell asleep and don't look sharp? You gotta be kidding me.

Yet still on the other hand, the Controller left. SY has assumed some of her duties, so if AL does the stuff that SY no longer does, than somebody else has to do AL's stuff. And honestly, I may have a serious struggle trying to do so. In fact, serious enough that I may eventually quit. Because honestly, I'm not ready for it yet. And the industry isn't where I want to develop my experience in anyway. The volume for the first quarter of the year was comparably low to any of the other quarters of the previous year. And maybe there's a shift in focus for Charlwood Pacific with more attention to Uniglobe? Or just downsizing the accounting department by one? I don't know. And besides, the code on my ROE that states the reason for issuing the ROE is "K - other" (as opposed to "M - dismissed") so hopefully that works in my favor. So maybe overall management's been about as fair to me as could be.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

music for running

My cell went off while I was jogging up at the SFU track and I felt faster and more upbeat when I heard the music even though it only played for several seconds and wasn't my favorite music (it was just the Mexican hatdance). Indeed, music gives engages the mind with upbeat spirit and helps renew and revive energy within. Should I get an mp3 player just for this, so I can jog faster? Or at least bring my CD player? Kind of heavy though....